I am out of towels. I have thrown them all in. It’s been that kind of a week.
This crummy week has reminded me that marriage is work, kids are work, and that I am a huge piece of work. When life is this much work who could want to play? The silver lining is that at least I don’t have to worry about being perfect anymore.
Sunday, March 24, 2013 at 4:45PM 
On the plains of Texas and Oklahoma, where trees are sometimes rare and precious things, there is a tradition that recognizes the responsibility of one generation for the next.
Rural homesteaders, once the house was built, the well dug and the first few crops harvested, would plant their "grandchildren grove." Laboriously, the farmer would read a score or more of seed catalogues and finally select a particular type of pecan tree. It had to be hardy and strong, able to withstand the deep winters and torrid summers of those dry plains. He would make his selection and send off carefully hoarded money.
Friday, March 15, 2013 at 2:44PM 
Dear Matt,
Before I start with my roundabout apology I'd like to thank you for being born on my 4th birthday, you birthday stealer.
Remember the summer of '98? (Not to be confused with the Summer of '69...neither of us owned a 6-string because we were spirits in heaven that year.) You had just graduated from Rock Bridge and I had just celebrated my first wedding anniversary. I had a super bad haircut. Now do you remember?
Thursday, March 14, 2013 at 9:38AM 
A month ago I thought I deserved a clear, finite, Julian-calendar-specific answer from the Lord about when exactly I would be getting my miracle baby. After all, I'd become the poster child for Failure. I'd had a sparkling attitude towards my mega-adversity. If my calculations were correct, it was time for visions to start rolling in.
Friday, March 8, 2013 at 2:12PM 
POST THREE OF THREE RE: CLOSURE TOWARDS THE FAILED IN VITRO
The lesson: IF YOU'RE LOST, REMAIN DILIGENT.
I think I've made it clear that I'm lost. Three months have passed and I still don't know what to do. Greg is ready to try IVF again but I'm not there yet. I'm kind of bitter that my doctor never even gave me a follow-up phone call. Greg told me that our doctor is just a data-driven scientist that doesn't realize what women go through and to give him the benefit of the doubt. I will eventually let it go, but for now I don't want to see him.
Tuesday, March 5, 2013 at 12:48PM